Typically after only 6 or 7 posts I decided to give up. I’m not entirely sure what I’m trying to achieve here.
I’ve been incredibly sad for the past week, with a spattering of happiness when I’ve been surrounded with people. But when left to my own devices I become a sad ball of flesh, fuelled by alcohol I’m practically detached from the world.
The last 7 days began with me missing my dad terribly and the sadness is an incredible void, but has steadily turned in to “I hate the world” “what’s it ever done for me” kinda state. Pathetic really.
I haven’t got any sage advice for anyone, I’m not imparting any wisdom today.
The next few days will be a challenge, doing lots of work by myself that usually requires at least 3 members of staff isn’t going to help my mood whatsoever, as I’ve said company is a drug for me, being by myself is like cold turkey. So if I make it to next Tuesday without doing something financially stupid, mentally moronic or physically damaging then I know I can get through anything.